Looking on the Brighter Side

Well some shit happened and I did not feel like putting them down. I don't want to focus on the shit in life but all the good. Like the fact that I'm going home this weekend and the weekend after that I'm going to the city. so I'm very excited.

I've been wondering about how I could make some more money fast, with out doing something illegal. And I've come to the conclusion that there is no such thing for a college student. I guess next year I'll just have to take 2 jobs so I could afford to live in and apartment and buy stuff at the same time.

But really college life is great I get to be out and free but some times I just don't want to do shit. Like I just want to sit at home and do nothing. I know that is not the point of being here but why not I mean it’s not like I need to be out and about all the time. I like to just do nothing be board, they say its healthy. I wonder who came up with that and if he was paid to say that, if so then maybe I should take a job like that. Who does not want to be paid for saying something that they just pulled out of thin air. I could do that.

I never knew just how important saving my money was, until now. I thank the gods that my dad was such a nut and had me put most of my hard earned money away. At the time I was pissed off because I could not buy some stupid cheep ass toy, but now that I think about it I can buy expensive nice stuff. Like and ipod nano (I actually plan on having someone get that for me but it was an example) But that money dose not last and instead of waiting till its all gone I want to fill it up now.

Wow it looks like all I can think about is money right now. Well I guess all college students feel this pressure, it must have something to do with the fact that now we are not at home and we don't have our parents paying for everything. kind of like welfare, once you reach a certain number that's it they cut you off completely.

Well I need to go I have to finish some work, class is very demanding. See ya

Well it’s been some time since I updates, my laptop was not working properly.

I'm having the time of my life, except for a few things. I went to work at my designated time 9:00 in the morning, being a girl who likes to work (and make money) I like to get there 5 mins early. But as it turns out my employer had a doctor’s appointment and her boss was not in, so I sat waiting, I ended up missing her boss he came in when I walked away and then when I came back I was stuck. Some guy (I don't know his name and I don't know why he remembers me) opened the door so I could do some form of work. My boss came in at like 10:50. I was already working and she was very impressed but I only work till 11:30 so I got to leave a little early.

It was raining today, and I got to walk in it without worry. The air is hot and humid and the rain was so cool. I loved it and then after the rain left there was the slightly hot air and this sort of cool wind that was warm but had this like cold feeling in it. I know its not that amazing but it really made my day.

I have to say one last thing it is amazing how some people will not give and except they are a large not a medium. My public speaking teacher is like this, and I swear the shirt is so tight that the buttons are stretching and look like they will fly off. She even wore this really low riding pants and she just does not have the figure. So her shirt does not fit (and it has the popped collar) and he pants are falling, not a pretty picture, and she is a middle age women too. Honestly if she wore clothing that fit she would look so much better.

I think you need to wear what works not what you wish worked, best to ware something that completes you then look like a trashy no fashion oddball.

Well till next time bye

Just chilling

Ah no more classes for the day I'm dead tired. When I got in my dorm room I just jumped on my bed and I felt so good. There is nothing like the reminder you are on your own to make a girl feel refreshed. Hehe

I would giggle and laugh at the thought but one of my roommates is sleeping and I don't want to wake her. I have to say people always look so happy when they sleep, with there blankets around them. It just makes you think how innocent we all look. If only we could be like that when we are awake think just how much nice the world would be. Then again it might also be very boring; I don't know which is worse.

I'm eating some Chinese that I just warmed up in the microwave. Ah such a simple pleasure, but one that makes life worth living. I hope my day's are filled with pleasant moments like this.

Distraction

I've just finish some home work and I'm taking a break before I have to move on to the next home work assignment. I'm too lazy and my bran is tired so instead I’ll just write here to give it a break.

I don't really have much going on just chilling and enjoying the room. I'm here by myself, not that I don't like sharing a room. I like having other people in the room when I sleep makes me feel safe, but I also like the moments when it’s just me and I can focused on just my thoughts and needs. This is the only time in our lives when we don't have any really worries, no kids, no boyfriend (or husband), no bills, no massive job responsibilities, only school work and when you think about it, its not that bad. We American tend to look at small things and turn them into huge problems and we neglect to see that life is not that bad. No matter what there is always something to look for.

I really need to get a USB cable, so I could put some pictures of the room and stuff up.

I'm very happy with the little refrigerator we have, I have my wonderful izzys in there and I'm thinking about getting some ice cream and putting it in the very small spot they made for the freezer. We have the microwave on top of it and the Mr. Coffee on top of that. It looks so cute sitting there next to our air unit.

I'm so happy but now I must go back to my school work. If I don't I'll hear it tomorrow and I don't want to start off on the wrong foot. A little trick I learnd at a young age for anyone who wants to do good but get away with stuff:

Make friends with the teacher and let them know about your life, that way if you say in advance you need something or you might be late, (if your lucky on the day its due) they useually let you slide, some of my teachers even helped me do the work. It's really nice when its near the end of the year and you are just to tired to do a lot of stuff or your over worked. I hope this works for college as well. This got me thourght high school so I'll cross my fingers and hope it works. (not that I usualy forget of slack off that much)

Anyway I shall leave you, till next time.

Ah college life

Well it's been a few days now and I'm really getting into this dorm life thing. I mean we have a refrigerator, microwave and a Mr. Coffee what more could a girl ask for.

It all feels so normal it's kind of creepy sometimes, like none of this is new. I guess I’m just being paranoid but whatever. I want to go to the city I'm a bit bored just sitting here. I want to hang out, eat and shop till I'm so tired I can't move and I just drop down on the floor and sleep. Just not on the city floor its not that clean.

Here is a poem I just felt like writing, sorry if it’s bad I just came up with it. I usually like to work on them before I show anyone but I don't feel like it.

You look at all the people walking by
they are lost
scared to be
The Individual.

kept under the surface
a human is being formed

trapped, hidden,

watching the people walk by
I shed a tear.

--- Me

Hey my first entry

I just felt like making a blog to put of random thoughts and poems or short store ideas/chapters, food ideas, and whatever else I feel like writing. So I might update a lot sometimes I wont, I'm a freshmen in college so the new experience of living in a dorm away from home inspired me to do this.

I hope that some of you will actually read my blog and post comments.

Right now I'm just here thinking about how fast you can get comfortable in a new environment. The sounds and the smells, such small things create such a major impact on our lives. I have to say I'm very happy about most of the dorm except the fact that it lacks that wonderful smell that comes from an overly used kitchen.

I love to cook always have and I miss cooking in my kitchen the most, all the pots, pans, and other wonderful equipment is sitting in draws and cabinets at home, to think they may not be used kills me. My mother works a lot but when she is home her cooking is out of this world, i want to cook like her. Well there is a kitchen on the 5th floor of my dorm hall so maybe I could try to do a little cooking there, even if its a really cheep electric stove.

Well I guess that's all for now. I'll try to update later,

so till then may you fly beyond reality into the unknown