wasted

I got piss drunk last night not because i wanted to not because i have a low tolaerance but because i wanted to forget.

I forget all my feelings and just let it all go. fuck this place and its massive bullship ways. I dont get why i have to deal with shit why i have to be alone when he that son of a btich found someone. -.- its been bothering me so much but i wont let anyone know. so i instead i just got wasted.

what the fuck was i doing.

I drempt i was walking from a club but i did not look like me.. and some guy was following me. he followed me into a park where there was no one. He came up to me and grabed me and tryed to pull me down but i took a bat and smashed him with it. Over and over and over again till all the was left was mush and blood and the police came and some lady was yelling and all the noice was around me and i couldnt get away, and then i woke up.

maybe one day i'll do it.