life

there are times when i want to kill myself and then right after i feel an overpowering need to kill others instead..... life is such a short term thing we all die eventual so fearing it is wasteful. we live to die we die to live.... is there anything better then looking into the face of someone who fears life, like that girl i was strangling, i let go and she lived (to fight again tomorrow with me) but it was her eyes that really got me. i loved that look...

I'm so tired right now, and i dont think what i wrote is even close to appropriate. then again its only illegal if you follow through not if you think about it.

another inappropriate thought if there was a guy like Hannibal just like the movie the way Anthony Hopkins played him i would love to met and talk to him…. Maybe even more who knows